Happy late 18th, Birthday Bitch

Wow... its been a REALLY long time and soooooooooooooooo much has changed. For those of you who dont know, I now work at the Westphal Sobeys... not exactly my dream job but it pays enough to get by. I also go to UNIVERSITY.. MSVU to be exact. I cant believe Im actually a University student. Man it seemed so far away while I was in high school, even over the summer it seemed far away, but here I am, sitting in the computer lab waiting for Business 1011 to start. Lol. It even sounds weird. I miss all you DHS ppl, Sarah the most! I miss you more than you can imagine Francis, I need you here so we can go through this university thing together! Anyway I gotta go or il be late for class.. call me anyone... i need a life.... Sarah my number is 802 1231... write it on your forehead so you dont 4get it! 
                          Love Love
                                         cat_luver

 Wow, its been..... forever..... I forgot to look at the date of my last post but i know it must have been some time late April! Alot has changed, I graduated, went to MSVU to pick out my courses and I start a job this week! I cant believe that school is actually over,  I mean its absolutely insane to think that im never going back to high school! I will probably never see some of my friends again! So things have been going ok I guess, I got two scholarships for the Mount, one enterance scholarship and one from the Rotary club. Its gonna cost too much next year! I read my last post and realized not much has changed with Ruth. She was much nicer and calmer for awhile untill last week when I was babysitting,  Jeremy had a fit over something and he started to throw stuff out the window, when he gets like that there is not point in trying to stop him, he will jump up and open the window and throw something out as many times as you close it, so i just let him go ahead and throw stuff out the window, anyway, I didnt realize it untill later, but he threw his moms purse out the window (Ruths) and I didnt find out till much later, but when I went down to get her purse, apparantly money was stolen (although i believe she lost it earlier....) Anyway she totally flipped out and lost it, told my she hopes we rot in hell and that I cant controll her children. She tried to get into my house to hit me later that night! So Im no longer talking to her, and i dont plan on being friends again... ever... so yeh... Anyway, im at my dads house now. Lilly (my sister) is like, 10 weeks old now, she is sooooo cute and really chubby! Lol. Anywho.. i gotta go for now, il try to update soon!
                 Cat_luver

P.S--- CHARMED IS OVER!!!! FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT AM I GONNA DO WITHOUT IT?
                             (maybe watch the 5 seasons i have at home for the 10th time?)

Hey everyone
Whats up? Yeah its been awhile hasnt it. This whole no internet thing sucks monkey bum. Anyway, things are ok, but not ok. I think my dads girlfriend had the baby, so im officially a big sister but he didnt even call me! Im mad at him for that. Im babysitting rite now, but for Sue, she has the net! I think im quitting my job with Ruth, i cant stand working for someone who shows me no respect. She treats me like I am a child and treats my mother the same way. She considers me her maid when i babysit and expects everything to be spotless, and i have to help the kids with homework and take them outside and play with them and everything else, she doesnt understand that half the time i babysit for her i do it as a favor and i have homework and stuff to do, so yeh. Im feeling ok, a little tired but not horrible. The only bad thing is i feel as if i have lost a friend (You know who you are) and it hurts because we have been friends for so long! Anyway i really have to go do my job..ttyl
              cat_luver33

Woohoo! you know your stuuuuuuuuuuuff!! have a pic.


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u got PIPER shes a gr8 cook,very sarcastic cares

about her sisters very very much and worries

alot,she nos exactly whut to say when her

sisters need her help...and she has a gr8

personality and a hot..i mean wonderful

husband! I LUV HER!


which charmed charatcer r u??? (WITH PICS AND 12 QUES. LONG!)
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Piper.
You are level headed and you keep your anger

bottled up inside.
You have the power to freeze time and blow things

up.


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"hey hey! ( my first journel entery )
hey everyone
(or at least casey and rachel considering they are the only ones with my username) lol
whats up? my day was pretty cool. i got an off class finally! I didnt have to go to mrs grindlys class today yay! Im at rachels rite now. its her birthday tomorow. happy bday hun! well i better go for now.. talk to ya laterz!
P.S Cassie is adorable"

Wow, things have changed so much since i wrote this first entry, i was so happy and carefree back then, totally unaware of what was in store for the following years, things were totally different back then, one good change since then is that i have became closer to most of my friends from DHS and i have made some new ones too, you guys mean so much to me and these last couple years would have been 10 times harder without all of you! I love you all so much.. and im also gonnna comment on my 100th entry since it was a milestone entry too, my first 3 digit one... lol

"I woke up this morning in a bad mood and ive just sorta felt upset ever since, I dont really know why but i just feel like crap and I was out with my mother for awhile this morning and I was upset the whole time and I almost started crying, i just really feel upset for some reason. I guess I was cranky too while we were out and I pissed my mother off, so when we got home she started yelling at me and told me to get out of her face for awhile, that just made everything even worse and I finally broke down and did start crying. I left five minutes later and came over her to a little internet place by my house so i could get out of my house for awhile and come write something so i can get all my feelings out. I wish i had someone here i could actually talk to rite now instead of just writing on here, but no ones around and my mom wont let me use the phone until after 6:00 and the only pay phone around here is in some store where the guy listens in on your conversation. So here i am alone, upset and i just dont know what to do. Well i really dont feel like sitting here for my last 20 minutes on the computer looking at this screen with nothing else to write so please leave me a comment and yeah..... talk later....

Frankie make sure to be at my house no later than 9:30 tomorow, a little earlier would be better.

                              cat_luver"

Wow, things were different then too, i wasnt dealing with feeling upset very well at that point, i guess im better off now that i talked to someone and got help. I was pretty upset that day but i felt i couldnt talk to anyone at that point. Im glad things have changed since then. Anyway everyone i gotta go... so luv ya lots...

Ok.. so this morning started out ok, but overall today was absolutely horrible.. Francis was here this morning, so that was all good, we hung out and watched movies.. i babysat once she left, and i called rachel, but she wasnt home so i tried the cell phone, Arthur anwsered and informed me that my nanny is dying and doesnt have long at all to live, ive been so close to her my whole life and now shes dying and theres nothing i can do about it, im gonna miss her so much, ive never had to deal with a death of someone i love, and im closer to her than i am to most of my family so its really tough on me.. i was upset all night and when Ruth got home tonight her and mom told me that i have to babysit tomorow morning instead of tomorow night, i was just surprised and in a rush to get back in my room to work on my site, but apparently i sounded rude, so Ruth freaked out and yelled at me saying shes sick of my attitude and now i lost a babysitting job and someone i thought was my friend, now im really upset and just, overwhelmed, this year has been really bad, too much has happened and im just... gah... anyway i gotta go... im going to Shannons house to get my mind off of everything...
              cat_luver33

Why am i such a fucking idiot? God i hate myself rite now. Ok first of all my day sucked, i felt out of it, totally, like i was in a dream but dizzy, weird, hard to describe, stupid epileptic shit. Anyway sorry if i seemed rude to ANY of my friends today, i love you all, i was just sick. But i came home and used a friggn q-tip im my ear, why? I dont know... anyway the tip came off and is now lodged deep in my ear somewhere... i have to go to the doctors tomorow and miss more time, im sick anyway so i guess its ok but if i wasnt such a dumbass maybe this wouldnt have happened... grrrr.... anyway i need a cold shower and some cold pills and like 78 hours sleep so leave it if ya love me..
                      pictures will be yours on friday
                                Francis bring your stuff to school friday if you wanna come over, id like to have a friend over!
                stupid cat_luver33

Well, this has been an intersting and stressful week for little old me. I wanna just kinda rant and talk for a bit so here it goes:

Sunday- Francis was over, I spent most of my day stressed and worrying about monday and the hospital visits. My grandmother came over and gave me 
a workout video (her way of telling me im fat) and she also gave me the $100 my uncle sent for me (because i lost my purse) so it was an alright day 
overall.

Monday- I was TOTALLY freaked out because i had to spend all day at the hospitals (two of em) but a wonderful friend of mine came and kept me calm. I got my blood taken and the girl couldnt get a vein so she was moving the damn needle around in my arm and it hurt like hell, so she switched arms. After that we went to the IWK and had DELICIOUS (lol right frankie) hospital food. Ugh it was sooooooooooooooo disgusting and incredibly overpriced. I talked to the doctor for like 45 minutes and she changed my dose of meds and told me i need a therapist or il have to be admitted to the hospital. Exciting! When we got home i ordered yummy cheesy bites pizza and a medium pizza for me, francis and mom since i got $100 from my uncle in the mail! woot!

Tuesday- I spent all day after school working on homework and university aplications, i litterally did homework from the time i got home till i went to bed, but it was worth it, i applied to MSVU and my project turned out great i think.

Wednesday- I didnt do much (I dont think) I just kinda relaxed, started my epilepsy essay and thats about all i can remember. I think i finished my essay.. lol.

Thursday- I had burned my essay to disk and sent it to myself but neither worked so i couldnt print them off.. it sucked, I got my clothes that i had on layaway after school. I was dizzy and overtired so mom made me lay down at 7:00 and wouldnt let me get up outta bed, i fell asleep around 10:00. lol

Friday- Overall a good day, forgot my meds in the morning, was wired all day long. Went to lunch with Hart, Francis and Chrissy. I sent my scholarship application off. and get this     I FOUND OUT I HAVE THE HIGHEST MARK IN MY BIO CLASS! And i got boston pizza tonight! I was totally ecstatic (sp?) I really cant believe it. Im so proud of myself. Anyway im looking forward to a night of total relaxation and Dee is coming over tomorow.

Leave some love 
                                             cat_luver33

http://kevan.org/johari?name=nini_0831

I am completly EXHAUSTED from my seizure.. i may seem like a complainer but man do these things drag the hell out of you.. anyway other than that im ecstatic.. im DEFINITLY getting the dress as long as its there on the 20th mom said.. i love here for it.. i have to admit.. i look hot in it and you all know i dont think i look nice EVER. Everyone in the store said I looked beautiful.. i felt like a princess.. its good to feel good about yourself.. its a nice feeling i rarely experience.. to bad it costs $520 with taxes (beleive me im babysitting my ass off for this dress) Its a once in a lifetime thing and im gonna make it memorable.. i wanna look great and i want a date.. lol anyway im gonna go lay down.. I think francis is the only one who knows who i wanna go to the prom with.. its weird.. but i dont think he likes me anyway.. i dont know why I like him... i just do... but its hopeless.. anyway im gonna go sleep

love you all so much

cat_luver33

List seven songs you are into right now (whether they have words or not) and then tag seven more people. Post these instructions in your journal.

Tagged by Francis and Rena

1)Gold digger- Kayne West/ Jamie Foxx

2)Lose Controll- Missy Elliot/Ciara

3)Bubble Pop Electric- Gwen Steffani

4)My Humps- Black Eyed Peas

5)Bohemian Rhapsody- Queen (thanks to francis)

I tag

kitty_luver22

spoiled_brat21

murder_child

musii

rena_h

candiedviolets

chickybum

I shouldnt be on here. I haad a small seizure apparently so mom made me stay home. thats why i wansnt in school today. Sorry evceryone.. love ya

gotta go

             cat_luver33

( My smexy dress )

Ughhh I have a major headache rite now, I feel so sick but i feel like telling you all about my last few days.. lol. Well things have been weird. I apparently have to go get a MRI, which i guess isnt a big deal but it could lead to two weeks in the hospital hooked up to electrode thingies or worse.. major surgery, but i know with my friends, especially Francis I will make it through it. Thank got first semester is over, but second wont be much better, at least I have some friends in my classes, woot for chem. Anyway heres a final report of my grades

Global Geography- 90%

Canadian Families- 96%

Math 12- 70%

So im not thrilled about that last one but im over it, I realize their is nothing i can do about it. Anyway Im trying to get my dad to name his new baby Brooke Lynne Kivimaki. Anyone like the sound of that? Or Brooke Lynn.. or Brooklynn Marie Kivimaki? I dunno, he probably wont listen to me anyway. I got my letters of reccomendation today! Woot, they make me feel proud, so thats good. Im going to Francis's house this weekend! Cant wait! Ohh and i saw my prom dress today, yupp, i got that "Love it and wanna live in it" feeling, get this francis... Its green! and Poufy.. so you.. but not. and so not me.. but yet totally me.. its odd...Il try to post a picture of it in my next entry tonight.. its cool. Anyway im watching Gilmore girls so nite nite.. love you all and thanks for your friendship

                 cat_luver33

woot, francis is here sand santat is on tv.. lalalala i like kibwi .. yumm... l8r dudddes

Well, im in an odd mood. Im really energetic yet tired and i was pretty happy till i heard a certain best friend betrayed my trust and really hurt me. I thought i could trust this person with my life, and she went and said something she knows she shouldnt have and got me in trouble and got my mother in trouble with one of her friends and almost got me and my mother in trouble with my grandmother. Its complicated and i dont want to get into it on here. On a happier note, ive got a confession, most of you know, I was really depressed for a long time, but a great person by the name of Justine Burke convinced me to get help, i did and now im on pills, I know its not a good thing to rely on pills for happiness but it has been working for me. I have more energy and am alot happier than i used to be. I just did 50 sit ups because i had excess energy and i want to lose weight. Im thinking of joining hip hop lessons just to do something fun to build my self esteem, lose weight and get healthy. Im in a pretty good place right now and i hope it lasts. I just want to let you all know i appreciate your friendship and love you all. Anyway Francis is on her way over so im gonna go, ttyl.

                cat_luver

TIGER EYES

You have Tiger Eyes (like

my username, haha)!
Positive

Traits: Determined, Passionate, Loyal,

Strong, Courageous
Negative Traits:

Aggressive, Ambitious, Domineering,

Possessive, Vengeful


Your eyes are the windows to your soul. What type of eyes do you have?
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